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Day ? of a Long Struggle with Weight Loss

I start.

Stop.

Start.

Stop.

Start.

Stop.

Never-ending cycle of me constantly trying to lose weight only to stop and give up due to a cold, muscle aches or in most cases, pure laziness.

Considering I have nothing much going on in my life aside from work, you'd think I could dedicate some of my time to actually working out. But I seem to keep "forgetting" or just "not in the mood" to get up and work out.

But it's not the working out part that I struggle with the most.

It's my eating habits. I love to eat. Eating makes me a happy person. Even if I'm not eating what I want, I love to eat. It makes me feel good. I'm an emotional eater, and I'll be the first to admit to that. I eat to be happy, I eat to get rid of sadness, I'll eat because I'm angry. Wouldn't be too bad if maybe what I ate was healthier for me. But carbs.

Carbs.

Beautiful, beautiful carbs.

I LOVE CARBS. Carbs make the world go round.

I also like cheese.

Black eye peas.

Green beans.

Mango.

Pinapples.

Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwiches.

Tuna fish.

Broccoli.

Cauliflower.

Chicken.

Fish in general.

But I love mayo.

See I love a variety of things....but I don't eat the good stuff enough.

I need to eat more of the good stuff.

And I have to eat less. Right now I eat far too much.

My goal is to cut back on HOW MUCH I am eating and get a little more activity in my life.

Just a little more.

So today I'm starting. Again.

This time I will do my best to keep up with it. NO FAILING.

No stopping.

NO STOPPING.

I can do this >3

Though I am a bit disappointed with my first day.

Cause I did a workout, but I didn't keep up with it well. Instead of keeping myself moving when I couldn't do the move, I just collapsed.
I also had chips with my breakfast.....seriously.

*sighs*

Let's work on this.